This week I have dived off the cliff and begun using my Tarot deck. I’m using the energy of the Reiki class to give me confidence in my insight into the cards. I’m reading kabbalistic interpretations of Amber Jayanti and Dovid Krafchow, but the thing I’m doing this week that I’ve never done before is leaving off my consultations with these tarot experts and relying on my own reading. Today, day 44 in my year of daily doing some new action, I drew the Moon card to show me guidance on a personal question.
One of the ways to see into the cards is to create one’s own version of them, and below, I have painted the Moon card with myself in it. As in my Rider Waite deck, the emotion in my painting is usettled. The moon’s face is frowning, even angry, and the dog and wolf are just about as disturbed as I’ve been feeling. I’ll be coming up to my 51st birthday this month – I’m a Pisces, and the Moon card is a Piscean card – and I’m working on a novel about growing old magnificently. But sometimes growing older does not feel magnificent.
The card shows some of the resistance I feel to leaving the realm of menstrual cycles, of daylight, of morning and noon. It’s a night card, a card in which one has the choice between remaining in an early stage of evolution, or taking the unknown path into the mountains. Those teeth on the wolf are bared, and the pillars are foreboding.
so interesting.... You will never be short on ideas. The crab at the delta of the yellow ribbon....mmm I had a dream once about a basement flood, there were thousands of crabs, after a few days I realized what it meant... the crab is the sign of cancer, but Hey! maybe this is not a crab, but a scorpion???